Tuesday, November 17, 2009 ; 8:50 PM
This is what today was like.
I did what you say to me although i know you dont mean it, dont wish me to go... I told you several time i will not go BUT you still insisted to ask me to enjoy. I just want to hear a no from you and it will really be a no, and things wont be like this.
Yes, I told you i will not go to club but you told me to enjoy, when you told me that i know in my heart you said though i know you dont mean it and dont wish me to go but eventually I still went to club, up till this point of time I`m still thinking why the fuck did i went there.
I know, I said something and did not achieve.
I know you'll be sad but things were just worst than it.
I just want to say i never do anything that betrays you. I want you to trust this.
This time i have really let you down, eventually i`m sorry...
Everything will be different from now...
I know you have lost trust in me and wont care much already, asking you to trust me again i guess it's hard and it's nearly impossible for you...
I have been breaking your heart last time and now, making your tears flowing continuously more and more,
Seeing you in this state do hurt my heart as well but i still hurt you.
What a bf i`m, I did say before i wont hurt you and will be better than your ex but now I`m no different from your ex.
I dont know what to say about it anymore...
Guess I dont worth all this heartbreaking and crying from you I`m just a guy who let you down but not up...
I`m sorry, i cant not bring you happiness but only sadness... If we cant make it, i hope next will treat you much more better than me.
Whatever i say now will be useless and nothing will go into you but only passby you.
I dont expect much now... Just wish you'll be happy.
I`m not heartless but something else ok. Nvm forget it, like i say it will just passby.
I
Do
Love
You.
