I'm so free now so i'm here to blog :)

To forsake things for you, everything is worth it... because you're my loves one that i must have it.
Definitely you're an angel and not a devil, If not i also would not want you already :X
Not only i want you to be just an angel but i want you to be deity :)

Although i'm reluctant to quit that job but you should at least understand abit right, dont get guilty about it... Cause you dont have to.

I'm sorry for the past event that i've done but all my promise will not go empty or my bird will fly high, right... but most important i also need you to be better & nicer alright and remeber what i said... everything. Most importantly is to eat something alright so it wont be like ystd, heartaches... :(
I dont wanna see it again uh.
I dont care you like it or not even if you're fat also will be mine :)


After i saw your blog today about the countdown i still dont know today was the 31th, haha!!
Woo going to be 2010 soon :)
Next year will be a better year especially with you:)




Baby i miss you...

Actually today was working but i took off myself and it's forever already i guess. Haha, anyway it's ok... This matter is sooner or later only.

Baby came to meet me today, wearing USA shirt(ralph laruen)... Act one USA, actually you should wear chi-na one and not USA uh... Dont anyhow wear other ppl country shirt uh, haha!!

Haha, you make my bed with dead taplo again.. oh god.
I'm hungry and she suggested me to cook noodle and so i told her to cook for me and she just say ok without nagging :)
So nice & sweet of her.
How i wish everytime would be like that...
Thanks for your mee goreng, very nice.. Now i'm not hungry :)

Going to 85 eat later, when we reach there baby told me she has gastric pain... I thought it's just minor , after awhile it'll recover... So we cont eating.
Never did i expect it get worst that she's groaning in pain for so long :(
Omg she said should be cause she had sour drinks and lime that makes the gastric worst, poor baby.

after that sent her home after finish eating... Rest well & i'll be alright ok. Muacks

Today was my off day, feel so weird... Maybe cause i'm used to work outside instead of staying at home.
sleep, eat and sleep again... Just waiting for tmr.

not all excuse/bluff are meant to be bad... You just dont know, everytime only think about negative way and say i bluff you... So be it, I'll just be straight forward then. Dont blame me.
Anyway sorry for bluffing you...

I just dont know why everytime we talk on phone it'll difinitely turn out bad...


(27/12/09)

Went to meet baby at simei and then went to 85 and eat, something happened again... After that she spotted my so called water bottle... HAHA, I've finally gave her the present i always wanted to give but i just have no chance as things have been happening and happening that makes my mind went crazy.

helped her to wear on :)

Hope you like it and you must like it cause I spented lots of time running around looking for the nicest& sweetest. First time i did this in my life, lol...

I just want to hear you want me and need me... And i know what i should do.

(23/12/09)
went to work a few day and someone took my number from my friend... Then she asked my friend for my number, my friend got call and ask me whether i want to give or not... But i just give lo, thought she'll want to tell me stuff about work but it's not like this instead of telling me she like me when she know i'm attached.

(24/12/09)
Thinking 0f lot's of thing... Not because i want to go to club but i just want listen to music and dance, to relax and think properly.

(25/12/09)
Went to meet my gf, and she keep on text and call me... something happen after that. What a nice timing...

She just walk off fast just like that and i stopped her for a few time, but at last i want you to go home but you dont allow me to send you home and i dont want to take bus so i just see you going off... And i sat there and stone, after that she came back and i was like so happy about it... thought you'll just go off. After that i waited for 20min Stand there and stone again, no text, no call, no one, guess you went off le ba. You came but you went off again, this time you did'nt turn back.


Cant bare to go home just like this so I walked to next bus stop hoping to find you but cant find you nvm, I continued to next bus stop but still cant find you, turned back often hoping to see you behind but dont have, guess this time you really went off alr... No more HOPE this time round, was dame tired already wanted take cab home and no cab at that time!!! Wtf then walk futher to another bus stop, still cant find you and i sat down there and wait for cab alr... After that took on a funny uncle ride, told me big things about girls and they are pubor... so i just listen lo. I was like wtf and laugh but not all girls are like that i know.

After that the girl texted me again and said i deserve it for playing her feeling! LOL! Nvm forget it. I'm in no interest in you and i'm glad that i did played your feeling! While the other side is hard to settle which is my gf the ONE THAT I WANT.. Headache :(

Yea maybe i really deserve it for entertaining with her, i can only blame myself... How stupid am I.
It's ok, dont find trouble with her... I'm not protecting her, just saying not worth it. She's just a slut.

I need to thanks both of you seriously, you is because you make me know how much she need me and you let me know that she's only worried about her own ass and push everything to me as though it's my fault
walan eh did'nt expect she would change so fast, few days ago still send me sweet msg and say you like me cause bla bla, and now like that... Fine nvm it's ok I'm not interested. So unlucky to meet till this kind of ppl.

(26/12/09)
She asked her friend to take back her mp3 from me ( she ask me to keep for her ystd ) ok nvm and so i gave her back... After that she texted me and say is my mp3 with you!? WTF!!! You ask your friend to take mp3 from me already you still sms me... Yea someone gave you chocolate and you sharing with our work mate although you did'nt ask me to take it but your friend asked me to take it. But i still dont want, no ty.. No more rubbish from you again, after that went i knock off... Was waiting for reynold to pei him smoke, ok so since i'm free... So i waited outside, THEN you purposely ask my another friend to eat chocolate when i'm beside him and so he went to take and asked me if i want and again no ty... Ok nvm, after that still ask me i haven go home ah? Of cause is waiting for friend... Thought you asked me to del you and ask me to take care? Still say all this funny things... Trying to por me again, So sorry not again... Now i talk to you not as a friend or what but just only workmate. I'm fucking fed up with that friend of yours, now i'm starting to boil... Wait till my degree went up to 100 degree and that'll be the time i PUAA you.

Today worked kitchen with my friend, so great... No one disturbing, only after boss came. Haha, we're talking alot and she came and scold us, still ask us want to talk chair and sit down here and talk or not... After that we never talk already. LOL!

I wanted to walk around in the streets alone and cool down but i cant my leg is kind of pain and tired so i went home sua... Hais, fucked up sia...

Today is my 2nd day of work and as well as baby's... Today quite a fast day as i'm learning in kitcken but baby's is having hard time out there.. she worked for 2 day and both day she complained that she's stress and headache, how i wish i'm now beside her... Baby jiayou alright, dont so stressed out uh.. There's also things to do forever so take things easy and slowly do. Your boss wont kp one, LOL!

Baby i'm missing you, counting down to thursday... Cant wait for the day to come :(

Today is my first day or work and also her first day of work, i'm quite ok with mine just that not so familiar with the things working out.. will get it well soon :)
she's stressed about her work , omg... Hope things go well on your side alright. You're smart i know :)
hais..

Like what i say, today i'll post first... I kept my word :)
Im posting early, cause later i'm not free already...
Going out but still deciding which place should i go...

Today went out with family and eat lunch, so long since i went out with them for lunch... Haha!
Eaten pig trotter , which is baby's relative... HAHA!!!
After that went to amk hub to shop, brought something nice... But that shall just be a small gift, i'm still deciding sometime else which is applicable for you... headache ah!!!


Tmr you're starting work already, I'll be missing you alot by then...
not only you're wondering but i'm also wondering too...
Just have faith in it and everything will go smoothly,
But I'm still paranoid about what you say... I cant help it, cause it really makes me think alot that had make me hold back everything... :(
Yea, maybe you think all guy's are the same but not all guy's act the same.
Baby hope does'nt makes thing go better instead do things that makes things go better alright...
Nvm it's ok I love you... everything will get better in time. I strongly believe... What about you?

not your fault

Was eating in a rush as movie was starting, after finishing we went up to the cinema in a fast pace... Aghss, was sitting in the front row. Dame it, so long since i sat infront... But it's ok as long as it's with baby. Half way throughout the show it stopped and lights was on, i was like HUH!? Is this part of the movie!? Haha! I guess not... Few minutes later the show started back again. I think there's flies on Baby that she's was like fidgeting around catching the flies! HAHA! opps :X Just kidding of cause, she's not comfortable with the seats i think.. because of the rest inbetween us! Dame the gv seats.. Cant hug her properly... While walking out of the cinema, there's ppl giving out something and you know i`m singaporean and i'll go and take... HAHA! And so i asked baby to take one too... And it's a complimentary ticket! Woo, guess it's to compensate us for stopping of the film in the middle.

After that sent baby home, and she bite me again!!! WTF!!!

Haha, enjoyed my day with her... Guess it'll be a long time till i meet her the next time. I'll miss you deeply baby..

Let's see how tmr goes on ........................

Hoho, been staying at home this dew day... Dont know which of my nerves went wrong....
It's been so long since i stay at home for so many day... did'nt meet up with baby as she's not able to, never go gym nor swimming, lazy and it's raining i guess... LOL!


I miss her too much, that im going mad about her... But i just tell myself, i'll see her soon alright. And tmr im goanna meet her for movie ... A show that i've been wanting to watch long ago :)


Guess it'll be the last day that will be meeting her till christmas eve which is on the 24th of dec, first celebrating our 5th mth and then christmas will come after that...





Im goanna plan out my activities this few day till i go to work on next monday... :)



............................................Baby



..............................................I

..............................................You

CHI-NA XINYI WIFE! I LOVE YOU!

i`m at home the whole day. OMFG!
It's Boring but times passes fast, a good thing to say :)

baby went out with her cousin to watch movie...
Imissher tho.

WTF! this morning 6am+ my friend called and ask whether i have any lobang for Kit kat.. WTF! Then i`m like huh!!!? oh then after that she say smack K's la then i know already. HAHA! Disturb me sleep sia. Zzz nvm, after i went back to sleep 1hr later my job agent called me !!! WTF!!! ok nvm i went back to sleep again... 30min later call me again!!! WAKAO! Then after that awhile more baby text me and i wake up... Only she can wake up me :)
LOL!!

After that thinking where should i go later, and something came into my mind... So i went out to town and have a look :)

Haha! I guess it'll looks nice on you.

25/12/09 seems very long :(
I cant wait for the day to arrive man...
baby! I misses you, your kiss & hugs! baby!

baby's a great girl of mine, she reprimand me when i think something wrongful :)
I truely understand and i'll keep it in mind.

And just nw dream of you, like what i say i just told you.. lazy to post. Our secret that cant be know by others. :)


im missing her right now...

Going out to get things :)

This morning went out to swimming at hougang with joven they all, meeting at 12PM sharp... I knew that they're goanna be late for sure, so i took my time to prepare.. HAHA! In the end reach there around 12 30PM and only 1 person is there waiting.. while the one is reaching and the rest is only on the way! LOL! So fucking long, so we just go ahead and swim first.. Today weather is so windly... Makes me shiver when i`m out of water :(

After that slack awhile and wait for my dad to pick me up for dinner! woo shiok dont need to go home myself

It's just out of the sudden my friend mention it when we're discussing about him, and so i`m telling you... Im just trying to tell you things that goes on just now and you have such a big reaction, I know you're disappointed in it. I dont know how to explain it to you either... Blame it on my bad thinking then. -_-


Nah it's ok i'll abort that thinking ok... Sorry about it.

cant imagine i'll say this kind of things right?
I guess now you're thinking... wa how come i like that sia. Have this kind of bad evil thinking.
Yea, nvm it's ok, i know it myself who am i and what am i can already...

Today baby gave me a warned suprise as i ask alot of things and she leaked something out HAHA! And so roughly i know what's going to happen, she let me waited quite awhile before appearing infront of me... But Im really very happy enough that she give me this long awaiting suprise... Baby is so sweet that makes me lick her up, OPPS :) ... And she think's i`m so chewy that she bite's me up! WTF!! ... LOL!
Romantic with her :)

Baby, thanks for today.. I`m touched :)

She's now sleeping and i miss her..

HEY! 2 things i wanna say today... Im back with you again lao auntie! Happiest things of the day.. Lots of things to say.. Firstly i got to thanks to my mother, second my father and .... HAHA! nah it's just bull shit.. Baby you really got to remeber what you say cause i`m serious and sensitive to this.

I only can thanks myself for being so understanding and forgiving. Not like you lao auntie! Once you're Angry, you'll angry for so long! Somemore when angry can dont talk to me one! So sad about it...








WE LOOK SO SMART! MAN IN WHITE!



2nd things it's about my job... Work as chef assistance again.. But today it's a different job. I`m just to stand there and watch them grab the food.. So call as buffet. HAHA! relax job,
Most challenging is when unloading things to prepare and loading those things back to restuarant... Before the buffet end the caucasian gave me and my friend tips for working, WOO!! First time sia in my life...And that's the end of the day I have lots of money in my pocket!!!... Best record in my life.. This job has made me learn lots of nice and interesting things... Good experience, Looking forward for more...

I`m happy today,

Ystd night before i slept i`m thinking will i have a dream of it in this sleep? and afraid of dreaming bad things again?

And sad to say, yes!... This dream really came out, 6+ i woke up and cant really sleep well and now 9+ i`m awake. Did'nt sleep well..

Maybe I`m thinking too much... But i just cant stop thinking.

Why, It's painful!!!?? How come!!!???


Any angels willing to give me guidance and tell me what's in my mind out there... Just anyone, anyone!
Idk why, why am i so aggitated... Of cause i'll !!! OMFG, Some Idoits right infront of me trying to be a joke and flirt you and i`m just standing up! And yet you're pushing me down... IT IS'NT MY FAULT AND YOU'RE SHOUTING AT ME! WTF! Look what's all this rubbish? This is so heartaching looking at you, talking to me in this manner...
Do you mean you want me just watching him like that talk to you and i dont give a dame?
Do you want me to be like this?


How i wish you'll push him down instead. Sigh... I guess it's just me, one side thinking. You wont understand... Everyone will gets jealous and will be angry for sure. Nevermind...


The urge to smoke! Dame it, Sigh! i have to control it well because of everything! My health and my body! I`m only going to move forward! Nothing going to hold me back! I guess that's a big white lie, there's someone which had hold me down....


What's happening to me?! Omg... I just want you beside me now. I really need my dear.




There's one phrase whereby everyone must really remember! WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!
THIS IS LIFE!
Love is just like a circle...

Lot's of doubts... Cracking my brain.

1) 1+1 will it really be able to become 1?

or

2) 1x1 will definitely become 1.

3)
4)
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! What a joke. Wee's getting too emotional just over small things..
Is that wee?

I wanted to see baby so asked her out to watch twilight the new moon... It's a nice romantic show, nice graphic tho... There's vampire & werewolf( which looks like normal big wolf only ) -_-... Copy the idea of Underworld i guess..
Which i think Underworld has more standard and it's nicer.

After that asked baby to go orchard with me, although she look reluctant but still she accompanied me for interview reach there the manager the manager ask for my Ic's but i did'nt bring it out... Omg Friend did'nt told me earlier. Too bad did'nt get the job on the spot has to go back tmr.. Aghs this sucks.

Things always happen... Sigh, I really wonder what things went so wrong. Is it really that serious till you need to be like this?

After that on my way home one of my friend called me to go Chomp Chomp and have dinner at seragoon area and i dont have the mood to go home, wanted to stay outside longer so went there with them... Just nice.
Asked baby to go with me but she dont want.. Ask her again still dont want... Probably her cousin's is waiting for her or whatever reasons i dont? .................................................................... -_-.


Chomp chomp is whereby my another friend from ite named wei an usually go with his gf and always said it's very delicious...
Finally i get a chance to go there with my friend. HAHA! How i wish she's with me :)
The chillies took over my thought.... Thanks chillies :)
After that cab home.
Omg! I`m spending alot this fewday... Goanna be broke!

Overall it suppose to be a good day today... But somethings just will happen everyday... Hais dont want to say alr. Heartache -_-

woo! Woke up in the morning, saw sunshine and my mind told me it's time to SWIM! Haha.. So i pack my things and went out to hougang swimming complex... Was thinking whether should i take cab or not. While on bus stop, bus came first so i got onto bus... While swimming I look up the sky, and think of her wonder what's she doing , missed her tho.

After that i went to bus stop and again in my mind i`m thinking bus come take bus, cab come take cab.. This time cab came first. HAHA! So took cab home... Shiok. Best part... I always feel great after swimming maybe all my worries is all in water :)

Evening meeted up with her going for massage! First time of my life and with her somemore... Woo~ Interesting!!! haha! I`m like shy sia, but still ok la. Who tell me so strong. Reach there the therapy was like interviewing us... OMG! Then tell us want to get the 1 hour deal or not then starting i was like dont want la but after looking at baby, she seem's to want it so I agreed with it and took the 1 hour deal rather than the 30min(free) Not really free tho we brought the voucher for it... After finishing we're both discussing about it and walked out happily. On the road also keep on saying! HAHA! joke sia... After thinking of it makes me laugh. When that therapy is pressing my leg I`m laughing all the way.. WOO. Can really fly sia, dame itchy lo.

After that went to have a good meal a V8 restuarant. Haha
We really know how to enjoy lifes...
How i wish every second, every minute, every hour, every day was like that with her... With only non other than laughter and joy.

I just want to tell you, I'll always be with you.


After that on the way home baby told me she's having a bad headache! AGH! I was like omg! I think it's because of the vanilla bue peach! Make's her brain frooze i think. Aghh! poor baby! next time i'll not goanna let you other that anymore.

Haha! I missed bus cause of giving her sweets! Nvm it's ok just merely a bus, it'll come again. Luckily i remeber to give her the sweets! saw her sister after that.. Haha baby wanted to accompany me wait for next bus but her sister was nagging and complaining. LOL! And i want baby to go home rest earlier so asked her to go off first ba. Asked her not to play com but she did'nt listen!!! AGH! so disobedient! Goanna whack her backside when see's her again!

Hoho, morning woke up actually wanted to go swimming but in the end i went back to sleep... LOL! Cause it's windly and i think it's going to rain and i`m tired! After that lie in my bed till 2+ and i went to bath... Then went to tamp meet clyde and buy my long sleve shirt for work. My friend brought $15 and i brought $35! Dame it, His brand was out of stock... earlier i buy it with him.

We're late for work! OMG! while we're at mrt we worried about them whether they are waiting for us or not... In the end his father fetch us good... Phew, Luckily never get any scolding.

I`m working as a chef assistance together with my friend it's so fun & interesting.. Haha!
After that went back to the cafe and collect money... WOO best part. When the staff there ask for our IC's.
My friend dad straight away say they where got IC! They are from korean! Then the staff was shocked and give one stun face, So fucking funny at that time. Then he lan lan! HAHA! what a blur sotong.. Another one more funny he serve us food, then i say where's the fork and spoon and he say use hand and take the egg. Then another chef beside ask tell him, YOU ALSO GONG one leh!!! He saying the fork for the noodle you say the egg. LOL!

What a funny cafe it is. Joke of the day.. HAHA! I`m laughing all the way while i`m eating...


This job is the best job i ever had, seriously! Good pay, Good environment with music, Good food.
Looking forward for the next coming event.



End of work i texted baby and she sounds so fed up. OMG! No matter what i say to her it wont work, sigh... What to do?

I`m having serious flu & nose block :( so miserable...

Ystd went out with baby, her sister & cousins! Saw her album of her baby's photo! This is one of it... It's dame cute like donald duck can!? Thumbs up high high. HAHA!

Went to town to eat and then to taka... So good of her cousin, whereby all cousin's always reunion tgt... Haha! One thing of them is they look dame alike espcially my baby and her sister! Haha! After that i`m kind of aww.. idk why also. Send baby home after went to take and then went home. Woo~ long journey.

CHRISTMAS IS COMING IN WEEKS!!

What i want for christmas is just to be with you... Nothing else will be better than that.

YO! I`M BACK TO BLOG!!!!

Lots of things happen during my exam periods and even now, Dont wish to say it anymore... It's over. Not worth mention-ing bad memories as i'll be SAD same as you! HAHA!

So i shall only say things that's good!

EXAMS IS OVER! Hopely i will score 4 GPA this term!
Was so stressed during exams, many problem occurred! But i still manage to finish my exam.. So Lucky that both my papers was so EASY... Everything i studied came out, HAHA! 1 Step nearer to POLY!

Baby I have already said everything i want and i can... The rest it's within you already, hope you'll just Forget & Forgive although its take's time i know. I'll wait meanwhile...

I failed again :(
After that night i`m outside, i told you i'll not make you cry again but it happened cause of same thing...


I gained one thing and i lose out one thing... : (

Why am i always so unlucky... Things just dont smoothly.


Hais.. This is not what i want!

After you appear offline in msn just only my,
FUCK! My friend asked... i told him and about it and meanwhile my tears was dripping while i`m typing to him!
Overall My heart just got frozen while i`m saying... I`m feeling some sort of guilty and touched that made my tears drip...

ILOVEYOU! I DONT WISH THIS TO HAPPEN ALSO! IF THIS IS WHAT GOANNA HAPPEN, I STILL WANNA SAY I STILL LOVE YOU!

I`m Weeliang,17
Xinyi is my girl,
Master Cue is my boy!
Bday on 8OCT
SIMEI ITE
Working
Quit smoking!